Just got out of a relationship that probably wasn’t the healthiest, but taught me so much about myself and who I need to be for another person as well as what qualities I’m looking for in a guy. I still obviously love and care for him, but i now must transfer that into a friendship kinda love, which will work out much better. We had our time spent together and I’ll always remember the good times we shared. Honestly, this is not because of anger or hurt, but I feel so much better knowing that I’m just adding another chapter to my book of life and its not over yet, its feels like its only the beginning. 5 minutes ago I was sitting on my bed crying, but I gathered myself and realized I’m better than that! There’s a whole world out there that I gotta explore and so many more people I’m excited to meet. “When one door closes another one opens” I just thank God for keeping me strong and optimistic during this time. I only pray that God would do the same for him.

I am now really coming to understand that some things are just out of my control and I should not worry too much about them because there’s not much I can do. I just have to let go & let God deal. All things do happen for a reason and it’s our decision on how we react to them. If we let things get to us, it’s only us that it’s affecting, so I mean we’re better off just thinking positively and hoping for the best outcome . We shouldn’t waste our time thinking too much about it. I’ve given God the control in my life and I need to have more faith that He knows what He’s doing in my life.

Btw: these past two days have been great despite the little mishaps that happen in the daily life. I have so much to be thankful for! I just have to kick those stupid little downer thoughts that like to overpower my thinking.